You might have noticed this unintentional silence that I’ve had here for a while. It’s been on my mind a lot lately. To be truthful, I had completely different plans for this blog the past few months. I scheduled posts to play out during my transit from New Zealand to Sweden that featured some of the wonderful talent from the home I was leaving. I arrived in Stockholm, so excited to share my adventure, and then it happened. Blank. Complete and utter nothing. Here I was in an amazing new country and yet I felt I had nothing to write about. I didn’t understand it. And so, I kept silent. I wrote an occasional post, although I mainly only kept in touch via Instagram.
I thought a lot about why I wasn’t writing. I blamed it on not having an area to work from (yet). I blamed all of the paperwork I had to translate and respond to (there’s a lot). I blamed all of the boxes that still needed to be unpacked (only a couple more left). I blamed having less hours in the day because it takes longer to get to and from school drop offs. And yet, I knew deep down that these weren’t really the reasons.
Then I wondered. Had I outgrown my blog?
I sat on it for a while. I have to say that it felt really uncomfortable to ask myself that question and I didn’t bring it up with a soul. Was I about to give up on something that I had worked so hard on for years? Am I a quitter?
I thought about all of the other skills I’d like to nurture. I’ve always wanted to improve my photography, so I signed up for a course one evening a week. I’d also love to develop my styling, so I’m thinking of ways that I can branch out and take advantage of this. During this searching, one thing that stuck in my mind (and heart) is that what makes me tick like no other, is to write. This is something that I’ve said I’d like to do since I was at school. I have a novel in me already, so why not work on that story one hundred percent?
But what about Styled Canvas? Why did I lose my mojo?
I really don’t know. Stuff happens. I feel that it’s back though. I guess sometimes we just need time-out to reassess our priorities. I had a massive shake up last year with my health and then the big move. Perhaps I came out a little shell-shocked. Who knows? But I wonder, do really need to find an explanation? Do I need to overanalyse the reason or just, let it be?
I feel truly excited for the possibilities. I feel happy to reconnect with you. I truly love this space. Looking back, the time that I was most happy and fulfilled creatively, was when I was styling a scene, taking the photos and writing a post to go with it. It’s a package. It’s also my training ground for all of the above. But it’s also something else. It’s my little place of expression.
I have so many things to share with you. Life in Stockholm, gorgeous boutiques, cafes, hotels, trade fairs… My travels in Cyprus, France and most recently, Marrakech. And that’s just the beginning, so stay tuned.
As for the novel? I’m going to work on that too.
Big hugs and much love to you all,